i feel ur pain. I'm going through the same thing. I think i'm critizing myself 2 hard. to be quite honest, i am a Junior in HS. theres nothing wrong w/ shooting for perfection, but i find myself holding myself to that standard to the point where i get really frustrated and often times depressed over my playing. i think i might actually be getting a little bit better as time goes by, but i feel as if i'm slipping. i honestly think i was a better player last yr. all i can do tho is play more. i try to cut myself a little slack here and there, just so where i'm not wanting it to be perfect in 30 minutes. but if u never give urself any slack, u probably will get worse. all the mental stress builds up, and everything just kinda locks up. i dunno, maybe i'm strange. college is getting here in a hurry, and i feel as if i have to be at a perfectionist standard to make the cut. i'm pretty confident in my playing, and i do feel good about it at times, i just stress out over it when i feel like i have to play perfectly. i play a whole lot worse when i'm all concerned w/ my playing than when i just loosen up and play. anywayz, thank you for listening to my rambling, i feel much better now. Joel